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To the moms who are continuously feeling overwhelmed because we all know that there is no such thing as easy when it comes to motherhood.
The guilt always lingers around
I’m sitting outside of my bedroom as I write this post. Noah, my 8-month-old son is sleeping inside — after being awake for most of the day. I’m currently taking a UX design course at Lambda School which is why I am awake right now and will be awake until 5 am — just in case you’re wondering.
My mom calls me, almost every day after she sends my brothers to school. The first question she asks me is “How is Noah doing?”
My immediate answer is “He’s fine.”
Today, the course of our conversation took an unexpected turn. My mother asked me why I stopped breastfeeding after coming to Pakistan. Truth be told, I knew this question was coming. For the past 8 months, anything I have decided to do as a mother has always been questioned and/or commented on.
I told my mother I was tired of breastfeeding. Also, my supply was dropping after coming to Pakistan. That I had an online course that demands commitment. I was giving a herd of explanations to my mother who was in return making me feel guilty for weaning Noah.
